Running with a heavy heart and a cause

I recently lost my Dad to advanced colon cancer.  The anger, sadness and pain that followed was overwhelming, and if it weren't for my amazing fiancé and friends who listened to me and encouraged me to get back into running, I don't know where I'd be now.

Running has helped me cope with the loss and pain.  It gave me time to think about my experience and sort out my feelings.  For most people the grieving process is a life-long journey of coping and despite what people tell me, it’s nothing one “gets over.” It simply is something you learn to live with.

Next weekend I'll be running the Nike Women 10K race.  I will dedicate this race to my Dad . I will be running with a heavy heart, and yet my spirit will be lifted by the memories we shared. I’m not sure what a heavy heart weighs, but I’m betting it will be more than offset by the inspiration he will always continue to provide.

My Dad was an avid cheerleader for all members of the family, and he was always happy listening all about my running endeavors. When I would visit him at his work for his lunch break, he would always ask how many miles I ran that day. 

I know he would want me to go ahead and run and most importantly live our lives to the fullest, and I will be carry his picture in my pocket during the race to symbolically have him at my side. 

Later this year June 2nd I will also take part in the Colon Cancer Canada's Push for the Tush in memory of Dad.  I want to encourage all of you to take part or at the very least become more active and healthier by simply walking more or running.

Running can be a very introverted activity. A person generally runs for the personal reasons of keeping himself or herself in shape, experiencing the joy of running a personal best, and competing against other runners. However, running can also have a positive impact on other individuals. By running for a cause, you are not only improving your life, but also the lives of others. In this way, the sometimes selfish sport of running can be a wonderful gift to your fellow human beings.

If you have always wanted to run a specific race, but simply did not have a motivation to sign up, consider using fundraising as your ultimate motivator. Running for a cause may be one of the most rewarding things you ever do.

Still need more motivation? Read about Robin Arzon and how she joined forces with MS Run the US to run across the US while raising awareness and funds to END MS.  Her passion and drive has inspired me to take my running game to a new level.   

Moving on, but never forgetting...

Feb 14 (Allan-tines Day as his cousin worded it) was my father's service. Over 200+ people showed up to mourn my father's passing and to celebrate his life. It was an incredible tough, sad and yet powerful day. What follows is my eulogy, which a few people asked me to post.  I have to say, it was probably the hardest speech I have ever had to give.

While it is very painful to say goodbye to my dad, I am comforted at what he has done for our family and his friends over the years and during his last few months. My dad had many hobbies and met a lot of people through them, he looked for every opportunity to learn more about them and offer advice and help when needed. He helped my sister and I through homework. He helped my mom with everything - he spoiled us with his delicious cooking. He helped me figure out a major, how to confront myself, and how our finest moments in life are only reached when we are challenged.


It looks like God just hired a new angel. God, you apparently have something greater planned for my Dad. I request that you provide him the following to maximize his happiness and productivity. Please give him his favorite simple pleasures in life: 
Please give him a spacious table full of supplies and endless model kits to assemble and paint. 
Please give him a sushi bar and a home theater w/his fave Godzilla movies w/Tenchi (our pet cat who passed away this past Nov) at his lap. 
Please give him a sweater and wool socks to keep warm. 
Please give him all of the love, laughter, and wonderful experiences he had in this life and more.


Thanks to mom and sister for every comfortable moment he had. We are all privileged and honored by every minute of his life. In his field of work my dad learned many things:
- Live honestly and with integrity
- Work efficiently and make the most of every moment
- Cherish what you have
- Find a way to make others smile and find things that make you smile
- Put 100% into every task no matter how menial.


I will end this tribute to my father’s life and legacy by a very simple, profound comment he made when he was ill. He said one afternoon, “I know my cure” and he pointed up towards God.


Thank you all for touching my dad's life and allowing him to touch yours.
Daddy, I love you and I miss you so much. I will always do my best to honor you.

End.

Today Feb 20,  I am back at work and slowly trying to get back to living because that is what my dad would've wanted for his family.  I know that even though he is not physically here with us, he is in our hearts & memories. 

If there is one thing I can take from my Dad's passing is to live, laugh and love each day to the fullest.